listening to: we are at the top of the world-pathway to providence

im having such a crappy day.
im like in msia so im pretty much just lazing around all day long.
its kindda of scary to be so free all of a sudden.
i hope all of you co people enjoy camping yah?
yikes,no one's online)):

listening to: baby come on-+44

oh great. my dad's pissed at the whole world again.
well, at least now we know he is back to normal.

listening to: transylvania-mcfly

I AM SHOCKED, FLABBERGUSTED, SWEPT AWAY, SINGING AWAY IN MY SAPRANO VOICE when i realised that people actually read my posts.
i mean, when i visit people's blog, i dont read the posts. well, sometimes i do when they are about me or when there are pictures.
oh. well thats not the point. the point is that i love love love all of you for reading my blog and telling me to chill when im so pissed off with the whole world and probably the universe.
thank you my sweet darlings(:

went out with AM on mon. oh gosh. that nerd's a goner. we were in the train. and it was like freaking crowded and there was like "real perfume" and "body perfume" and the smell was like invading my nostrills like an army. scary.
by the time we reached yiochukang, i kindda regretted taking the train. this guy raised his ARMPIT and gosh. THERE WAS A FOREST OF HAIR. yeah. i was standing under it. gross.
but a really funny thing happened, AM kindda like turned around suddenly and looked as if he was looking around for something, then the guy behind him was so taken aback, he also did the same thing (turned around suddenly and looked around him) and soon there was a chain reaction. OH.MY.GOD. it was hilarious. when i asked AM what he did that for, he said he was bored. oh my god. it was freaking hilarious. i should have taped it down and post it on youtube or something.people, if you dont get the picture, come ask me. i ll demostrate on the train someday(:

special dedication:
MICH:
hey there. i know you are reading(: i feel so happy for you that you have started to write again. you dont know how much i enjoyed that fanfic you wrote. promise me to write some more okay? and yeah. i know you have bigger breasts then me. no need to brag really.

im feeling much better now, away from the people i usually hang out with. its a nice thing, you know, to be with someone else for a change(: someone who is not so caught up with her ownself.

AND I JUST HAVE TO POST THIS. PEOPLE: THIS GIRL IS FROM ST.NICKS AND SHE HAS A FATAL CRUSH ON A MR FROM OUR SCHOOL. TYPICAL LIAN WITH PHOTOSHOPPED NOSE AND EYES. CONTENT FOR PEOPLE WHO LIKE TO SEE WHAT FALLING IN LOVE WITH A TEACHER WILL FEEL LIKE ONLY.
you will be speechelss


people marching to the drums
everybody's having fun to the sound of love
ugly is the world we are all in
and if im right then prove me wrong



listening to:dead-mcr

you hardly give me a break dont you?
okay fine, so you are not going to invite me to your outing.
you dont have to post it loud and clear on your blog dont you.
all the time, i feel that you dont really want me around.
you are just asking me to come along because no one wants to go with you.
like the library for instance, you only asked me to go when NO ONE WANTS TO GO WITH YOU.
what the fuck?
you just do things your way and expect me to follow you.
and when i try to give my opinion, you give me that really-meh-as-if face and i feel as if you dont trust me enough to believe in the words i say.
when i ask you out, its just no-money, no-time, dont-feel-like.
i feel as though you take me for granted.

why does everyone sees us as best friends?
i dont even feel the connection anymore.
i dont care if this post might just end everything
i feel so betrayed.
you try walking along a dark pavement at night in a city where no one knows you.
thats exactly how i feel right now.
i am always the one that you ask out when NO ONE ELSE WANTS TO GO WITH YOU.
you never wait for me to go for assembly together.
you never wait for me to go for recess together.
WHAT IS THE POINT OF DOING THINGS TOGETHER NOW WHEN I KNOW THAT ITS ALL BECAUSE I AM THE ONLY FUCKING EEJIT THAT HAS FREE TIME TO GO WITH YOU?

you have never treated me like a friend right?
im just some handbag in your carboard and YOU CHOOSE THE DAYS THAT YOU WANT TO TAKE ME OUT.
i had enough of this.
i dont care if i dont look good in front of everyone anymore.

fine.its okay.
we are going to drift apart in sec three anyway.
we know what we feel.so whats the point of trying so hard to pretend to be good friends now.
i guess its just my wishful thinking.you are just something that is bigger than life.

yeah,i might just be talking about you.

listening to: fireworks- the whitest boy alive

you keep your cards so close to your chest
you are making me confused

its hidden deep what you need to address
if you want to resume

aching and longing never ending fireworks
let it be let it be let it oh baby let it hurt

the heat is on for the action to speed up and ease
we could keep talking but only be certian through means

patience is just another word for getting old
resolution is just impossible as letting go

is there a hint of vulnerable you there a drift in your eyes
could it be that the sharp and the blunt side have shifted this time

i wanted you, you wanted me but he was there
now let it be,let it be, let it be oh baby let it bare

listening to: liar-taking back sunday

okay, things are better now and this blog is alive again.
celebrated halloween with AM and gang. funness(: scooby doby dooooo(: haha. that look on mich's face was priceless(:

before that i went to plaza sin to have dinner with the cellists((:
we had so much fun with the pizzas and the pastas and all the photo-taking.((:
i had to go home alone and the train was surprisingly empty. my dad told me that i took the last train. too bad i didnt see nay of those scary old ladies that my brother attempted to scare me with. boo.

this are pretty much back on track.my life and everything is making me quite a happy girl already.(: thanks to the following people(:

DAD: hey dad. I KNOW THAT YOU ARE READING THIS.(: thanks for the motivation and all your forgiveness for the times i sweared at you and even did many things most parents will be ashamed of, but you showed me off to your world like i was priceless and that really touched me. i might be good enough YET. but at least you know IM TRYING((: i love you((:

charissa: i will always remember what you told me at changi airport.you have brought me many things that i thought i would nevre have.thanks for the talk, the walk and the thoughts that you have given me. i love you(:

AM: i dont know what to say(: but thanks for the long talks on the phone((: and being there for me since the first day we met.(: things are much better now(: thanks for all those study nights((: you really taught me alot(:

BRO: you quirky little bastard. although i know its conventional for older siblings to THANKS their younger ones, just like to tell you that i love you as much as charissa(: dont be jealous(:

and to all those who are always with me, i love you guys and i treasure whatever relationship i have with you. be it scandalous or not((:

i still dont know what is my purpose in life, but right now sec three is all that matters so lets just work towards that first,yah?